Now, don't get me wrong, I am not just sitting on my hands, waiting for my ship to come in or for the pot of gold in the rainbow to fall on my head! Oh, no!!
I have sent out a bunch of applications, planning for a new job in the fall. I am in grad school, working towards special education certification (and yes, crazily, maybe even a certificate in "severe emotional disability"). I talk positively about my future to anyone who will listen, and sometimes even those who would rather not! hehe
So...... sounds like I am doing everything right, right? So why am I still questioning this path I am on? Why am I looking for more? I feel like I am not making enough of a difference (despite that quote that I read every day at the top of my blog).
I feel like I am waiting...... but for what? Will I know "it" when it gets here? Will I be afraid? Will I be asleep?
Do you ever question your very existence on the planet? Wonder what the "Big Picture" is? I have been doing it a lot lately and I am not sure if it is because I am getting older or what. I read a lot of blogs written by people going through real struggles and it makes me feel silly to be worrying like this....